I'll be home for Christmas

I listened to Christmas music for the first time this week... I'm one of those people that normally starts in November. I'm not religious... it's just the feeling that that sound gives me that I enjoy so much, it takes me back to much simpler times. Things are changing now, those memories and the feeling that music and the season provides me is fading. Given recent events I don't think this will be a one-time deal... The holiday season hasn't been kind, and home isn't a home anymore, yet it's hard to complain when there are those out there dealing with things much worse than I have experienced, or possibly may ever experience. I'll comment more on that in a few days, on Christmas.

So I find myself haunted again this Christmas season, but not by the memories of youth and the opportunities and experience that brought... instead I am haunted by the present, and the recent memories it has created. The kind that are hard to push to the back of your mind, the kind that will linger long after the season is gone, and will strengthen with the return of the season next year. I remember... and I wish I could forget.

I Remember by Stabbing Westward

Do you ever wonder where
We would be if we had tried
A little harder?
It seems like yesterday
That we were making plans
For the future

But it's been so long
Since I have mourned the dreams
Those dreams we left abandoned

And I'm haunted by your face
And the memory of your kisses
Sweet kisses

Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcended space and time

As memories slip away
The ghost of what we were
Is fading

But there is no more pain
Which is funny 'cause that night
I was dying
I was dying

Now I don't even recognize
The girl I swore that someday
I would marry

But I can't forget her face
And I can't forget her kisses
Sweet kisses

Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember always feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcended space and time

Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
Or how we swore that we would never be alone
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
'Cause I still can't forget your touch
Or how we swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcend space and time

We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcended space and time

Do you remember?

God I remember so much

I remember so much...